We've all got both light and dark inside us. What matters is the part we choose to act on. That's who we really are.
~J.K. Rowling (by way of her character Sirius Black), Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix
These lines come from a point in Harry Potter's life when he discovers this strange connection to the super-villain (*whisper*) Voldemort who is so bad most people are terrified to say his name. Their past interaction supernaturally linked them together, and as Harry sees himself changing, becoming angrier, he begins to question his own “goodness.” While this connection is a magical one, this is a point in the book I think would resonate with most of us:
Harry Potter: This connection between me and Voldemort... what if the reason for it is that I am becoming more like him? I just feel so angry, all the time. What if after everything that I've been through, something's gone wrong inside me? What if I'm becoming bad?
Sirius Black: I want you to listen to me very carefully, Harry. You're not a bad person. You're a very good person, who bad things have happened to. Besides, the world isn't split into good people and Death Eaters. We've all got both light and dark inside us. What matters is the part we choose to act on. That's who we really are.
Harry Potter: This connection between me and Voldemort... what if the reason for it is that I am becoming more like him? I just feel so angry, all the time. What if after everything that I've been through, something's gone wrong inside me? What if I'm becoming bad?
Sirius Black: I want you to listen to me very carefully, Harry. You're not a bad person. You're a very good person, who bad things have happened to. Besides, the world isn't split into good people and Death Eaters. We've all got both light and dark inside us. What matters is the part we choose to act on. That's who we really are.

Love this (and now I want to go reread the whole HP series again, too). Carol, you are inspiration to so many, and I'm so grateful to call you my friend. You've taught me in so many ways, and I have to thank you for that.
ReplyDeleteThis is oh so very true, I can attest.
ReplyDeleteFirst, there are no bad thoughts or emotions, only bad behaviors. Only actions are right or wrong. You can think or feel anything, and it's okay, as long as you don't act on it.
I think sometimes we learn to beat up on ourselves, because we think about doing some evil shit sometimes, when life gets us down. I know, because I've done a lot of evil shit.
But when I was young, I was really damaged (a lot like Harry, actually), and while things certainly could have gone differently - they didn't. I lived the life I lived, and did the things I did, and in the long run, I eventually finally learned from them and grew as a person.
Now that I'm all grown up, I'm a really awesome person, and I'm actually much wiser for all the darkness.
Oh my, I love this ohso much, especially because I've been thinking a lot about redemption, and the ways I've seen it portrayed in literature. Possibly because I'm still buzzed after seeing the new Les Miz, and Hugh Jackman makes it easy to be contemplative. At any rate, even though I feel like I'm moving in the right direction, I'm reminded that I'm always ever one choice away from being where I started.
ReplyDelete(Now, I'll be singing "Who Am I?" in my head all day...)
I believe our depth of good is equal to the depth of dark we are capable of... yin and yang, balance, etc... but we choose which side of the spectrum we want to be in primarily, which is a lot of work if you choose the good!
ReplyDeleteSo right, and written so well...
ReplyDeleteSo true--a lot of work! But seems to me usually the things worth having are worth working and fighting for. I like your yin and yang idea. I'll be pondering that for a while.
ReplyDeleteYou're an amazing person, Matt, possibly all the more amazing for having had the struggles you have. Getting through what you did and turning into the man you are? It's inspiring.
ReplyDeleteYou are so kind, Sara--and so inspiring, too. Thank you for your touching words. Some days I feel like I'm fraying, a cobweb being pulled apart one strand after the other, so it means a lot to think that maybe I've inspired you in any way. I hope we can talk soon. I really miss you! I started an email for you several days ago and just haven't finished it. But hopefully this weekend! I can't wait to catch up.
ReplyDeleteThanks, Carol.
ReplyDeleteHugest squeezes, sweets. I know. <3 <3 <3
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